Slowing Down

At the end of November 2016 I went to a Cacao Ceremony & Elemental Dance. At the beginning I picked an Osho card, "Slowing down" faced me. I read the description, and knew, as always, that this was not what I wanted to hear, but what I needed to hear at that point in time. 

Two weeks later, I opened up my own pack of Osho cards, "Slowing down" popped out in front of me, I didn't bother doing a reading, I was getting the message loud and clear.

I was well aware that there were certain elements in my life I was rushing. As a Red Rhythmic Serpent, according to the Mayan Calendar, although I sought to strike balance in my life and with those around me, the serpent side of me would dive straight into the action, without a second thought. I was in, head first, but would learn in time to become more of an eagle, soaring above, patiently watching and waiting for things to unfold. 

I wanted things to happen now!! But I knew I had to surrender to my flow and let the future unfold in its own way, everything happening in divine time. My attitude in the past was, I'd rather have an "oh well" than a "what if", no regrets. Although I keep that fairly close still, I'm also learning more patience & trust. Sometimes things take time. And for good reason. 

So, not only was I becoming more aware of slowing down in many different facets of my life, I was learning, still, to be more present. To not focus on tomorrow on what that may bring, or next month or next year. But to see and experience and fully feel what was happening now. Always a work in progress that one ;) with slowing down there has come more presence, with presence comes more peace and with peace comes contentment. Contentment in knowing that everything is happening just as it should, when it should, how it should. And I trust it! 

 

Rise Sister Rise

I was going to do a little post on Instagram with a picture of this book, but after reading it, I felt it deserved way more than a “read this” post and a few hashtags. A couple of weeks ago I was buying something on Amazon and a suggested book popped up “Rise Sister Rise, A Guide to unleashing the Wise, Wild Woman Within” by Rebecca Campbell. I usually ignore the suggestions, but for some reason, something made me stop and look. I clicked on the cover, read the description, and without thinking twice, added it to my basket. A few days later it was in my hands. Having been on somewhat of a spiritual quest this last year, spending time alone, healing, learning, growing, I was excited to get my head stuck in this book.

It came at exactly the right time, as these things do, and has made a huge impact on my life, more than I even thought possible. I started reading it, and as I turned each page, tears filled my eyes. I felt like I was reading my own life story. This sister moved to London to start a career as a designer, working her way up the ladder, a strong, determined woman, making it in a mans world, and stayed for 10 years, as have I (it will be 10 years in April 2017). She went on pilgrimages seeking knowledge, healing, sisterhood, as have I. When she was 14 she started having horrendous periods, and in later life learned she had endometriosis, as have I, (3 operations down and a continuing self healing journey). She learnt that moving her body through dance & yoga, and not so much the gym, was her greatest release, as I had rediscovered this year. I couldn’t believe the connection I felt to this sister, this woman I had never met.

Goosebumps went up my spine, I could hardly contain the tears, I felt so much compassion, not only towards her; yes, I too have felt you and your pain, sister, but also towards myself. She spoke in the way that I thought, the way that I wrote, I felt every word so deeply. Reading this book made me realise I wasn’t alone. Since the start of my ‘spiritual journey’, if you like, really from my Reiki level 1, but slowly before that too, I have felt somewhat disconnected. I have felt different, unsure, yet certain, lost, but at home, it’s hard to describe it in words. I’ve wanted to break away from the “norm”, but then felt so conditioned by my growing up and by society that I didn’t know which way to turn, or even how to do that. I was holding on to so much control of my life, always thinking of the future and never just ‘being’, in the present moment. Awakening has meant going into all of my darkest shadows, looking inwards, looking at my behaviours and patterns, recognising myself, returning home. It’s not been an easy journey at all, but I am incredibly grateful for the insights and for the path that I am now on.

So I wanted to express my love for this book because I’m sure I’m not the only sister that is feeling this right now. She helped me to see more clearly, and as I was learning to listen, to then listen more. To not follow what society wants you to be, but to listen to the deep inner callings in your heart & soul. If you listen closely enough, you will hear. I felt like I was being held safely in her arms whilst reading this book, my spiritual sister, mother & teacher. She gave me the courage to keep writing, something I’ve been working on for many years, but not had the faith to keep on with it. There are too many things to note so all I will say to all of my sisters out there, read this book. It may resonate with you in some way, it may ignite something in you, who knows. All I know is this, it’s beautiful and we are awakening. 2017, I welcome you as the journey outside of London continues. Namaste x


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How Reiki Changed my Life...Part 1

I've had many people reaching out to me asking about Reiki in recent months, I thought it would be good to give some more insight into my own personal journey with it, in the hopes that it will resonate with others and inspire them to seek out more knowledge. I love talking about Reiki, so here is Part 1 of my journey, enjoy...

At the end of 2012 I hit a pretty low point in my life, I hated my stressful job, I'd been suffering with PTS and anxiety, I'd had 2 operations to remove endometriosis, I wasn't loving myself as I should've been, stressing all week and partying hard at the weekends to escape it all. I wasn't happy in my relationship, predominately down to the fact that I didn't love myself, although I wasn't too aware of this at the time. I knew something big needed to change. 

I started looking for an alternative healing treatment for the endo', as I really didn't want another operation, and during my search, Reiki popped up. I'd heard of it before but it had never really resonated with me at the time, but for some reason, this time, the articles I read drew me in and I was hooked! Something ignited within me and I knew deep in my soul that this was going to be the thing that would help me in some way. I wasn't sure of how it would or how long it would take, but there and then I booked my Reiki 1 attunement so that I could start self healing. 

I did Levels 1 & 2 pretty close together because I didn't know much about it, had I known more I would've separated them by a few months at least. Having said that, because of the closeness, the shift I went through afterwards was so profound, I had no idea it was going to be so powerful! 

During my 21 day healing process I went through what's called a "healing crisis", in which the pain in my body amplified tenfold. And it wasn't just physical pain either. I started having flashbacks from my childhood, you know the kind of stuff you think is buried and let go of....well those memories and the emotions attached to them were still there, hiding underneath all of the layers of my hard exterior. They were presenting themselves loud and clear in order for me to face those demons once and for all. 

I was scared initially, I was feeling things I'd never felt and I was experiencing states of mind I had never discovered before. I didn't understand what was happening until I read about it in one of my Reiki books. In short, a healing crisis is when the life force energy is working its way to the deep blockages in the body, and this can come out in a physical and/or emotional release. And this always gets worse before it gets better. I continued to self heal until the pain in my body completely went away, I couldn't believe it!! 

I was working through my chakras every day, reaching quite deep states of meditation, something in me was stirring, awakening. I started to see things differently, people, circumstances, things started to become clearer in my mind's eye. At the time I kept most of what was happening to myself, it was an incredibly personal journey and I felt it wasn't easy to explain to people. I also didn't start to share my Reiki healing gifts with others for at least 2 years from when I was initially attuned. I wanted to make sure I was in a good place myself before I started offering services to others. 

My level 1 was nearly 4 years ago now. Since then my life has changed a lot! I moved on from the relationship, I changed jobs, eventually going freelance, I've lived in Ibiza, Goa and Bali, and also traveled to Australia, California & Croatia. I did a level 3 in Ibiza in the summer of 2014, and then spent 4 months doing my Masters with a teacher in London in 2015. Things have shifted and awakened beyond what I had ever imagined and it still feels like I've only just begun; the journey continues to unfold in front of me. 

This is just a small snippet of my Reiki journey so far, so stay tuned for more on my other levels, teachings, taking Reiki around the world, and to see my journey continue on to my teachers level, which I will be starting next month. I have never felt so passionate about anything in my life! Reiki is so powerful and magical I want to share it with everyone!! If you would like to know more please just ask, I'm always here. Love & Light x