Slowly emerging at sunrise as the light trickles inbetween the leaves of the jungle, shining through my open doors and onto my bed. The last 5 days have been spent in a full power woman’s circle and as I wake, I remember, and I embrace the emotions that are still vibrating through my being.
I’ve been holding space beside a dear and wise sister of mine, whose service on this planet is to enlighten women, with all the ancient teachings of the Divine Mother and Mother Earth. Her wisdom shared comes through as a huge transmission as she sits in the medicine portal and channels the voices of many; light beings, grandmothers, spirits and guides. And also from her own deep devotion to the learning’s, years spent in Ashrams, medicinal plant work, and from working as a healer for over 20 years. I was truly honoured and humbled to sit beside her, in full service and also in receiving myself.
I am so in awe of the transformations that unfolded within just a matter of days. When women come together to do the work on their wombs and their hearts, it’s pure medicine! We were processing and healing through 7 generations! This is not taught in Western education, yet is vital for us to know and understand for our health and for moving forwards as we birth children into the New Earth.
Now, we are the ones that have come through to understand and learn, so that we can heal the traumas from before; from our Mothers, our Grandmothers, and our Father line too. Unraveling all of the fear, the shame, the guilt, the suffering, the sorrow and the abandonment. All of this information is stored deep within our wombs and causes so much pain; emotionally, physically through disease, spiritually, mentally, yet most of us aren’t even aware of why we are feeling the way that we are. And why we play out certain patterns, beliefs, and structures in our lives and in our relating. We come into this world carrying so much information stored from before. It’s pretty profound. And so much conditioning that comes from society, instilling fear and control, keeping us stuck in old ways.
When I lived and worked in London in my twenties, I was so disconnected from my physical and emotional body. I didn’t understand that everything was so deeply connected and intertwined. I wasn’t taught this stuff growing up, I had to find my own way. Bless my teachers and my elders, they didn’t know either, and were always doing their best with the knowledge that they had at the time.
Those that know me well know that my journey came from healing disease in my own body, in my womb. I’ve been working for years now to untangle the mess inside of me, which was impacting all layers of my being, physical, emotional, mental and spiritual. It’s been a deep process of many forms of “work” - plant medicines, womb healing, water therapy, various forms of bodywork, yoga, meditation, with Reiki being one of my main Saviours. Countless retreats, workshops, trainings, and sacred circles to unpick, understand, acknowledge and move through. You name it, I’ve probably done it or tried it.
I feel grateful to say that this particular circle showed me how far I’ve come and how much I’ve released, healed and transformed over the years. It’s been one of my missions to liberate myself from the conditioning around if and when I may bring a child into the world so that I can heal what’s going on internally. It’s a lifetime’s work really; nonetheless, I endeavour to bring as much purity as possible into any little soul that wants to come through. They say that many women release illness in their body when they birth a child, although what actually happens in several cases is they pass it to their children. So we end up in these endless cycles as we move through the generations.
I’ve also consciously been working on releasing fears around any judgments that may be placed upon me by friends and family with the seemly out of the ordinary choices that I have made in my life. Continuously stepping out of my comfort zone and into the fears for more discovery, experience and expansion in this lifetime. That’s a process in itself.
Times are changing, we are going back to the teachings of ancient times and understanding how women used to circle together and honour their cycles. How in the last 100 years we’ve been more heavily in our masculine side, taught that we must go on no matter what, not to feel, not to express, just to be quiet and get on with it. Wow, this is what is causing so much unbalance and illness in our societies. More often than not, if not in very case, illness is just a build up of emotional pain that hasn’t been expressed (but that’s a whole other blog post/book!)
You have period pain? Take a painkiller and go to work. No…. this is not how it’s supposed to be. Women should honour their cycles, they should go internal and feel it all, release, nurture, tune into their most psychic times, and really feel their innate power within this moment. This is necessary for deep connection to self and for really embodying their wise woman within. Do you know how powerful you are, woman?
As always, the timing of this Wise Woman’s immersion was impeccable, as I transitioned through a pivotal point in my life. The Full Moon came right in the middle of the retreat and so my cycle tuned in perfectly too. Through Shamanic Breath Journeys, Yoga, Meditation, Shakti Embodiment, Sound Healing, and learning more about Aligning to the Moon, the Cycles of Woman, and Sacred Sexuality, we moved through so much magic! I am so proud of all of the sisters that showed up to do the work and I am excited to witness the ripple effects that will unfold in their lives in the coming weeks and months. Once this journey starts, there is no going back, and the rewards are plentiful.
What I also feel to express is my deep gratitude for my personal journey. I absolutely needed to experience everything that I have been through so that I can be in deeper service to others. To understand certain disease in the body and what this means, what it feels like to experience sexual trauma, understand toxic relationship patterns, beliefs, to feel real heartache, everything and all of it. I am so grateful for my journey, it led me here and for that I am eternally grateful. It has shown me how strong one can be, how much one can shift and grow, how one can really take the negatives in life and turn them around into a gift. This is just a part of my story and right now this is the greatest gift I can share… and it’s only getting started.
I am offering retreats, workshops and 1:1 healings with some amazing women and hosting my own in the coming months, years. Mainly in Bali and Europe. Please get in touch for more information on anything you feel touched your heart, on anything that resonates with you, deep within. I am here for you. Together, we rise…